This is not a makeup-related post...so you if you're here solely for my makeup tuts/reviews, don't bother reading this, you'll just want three minutes of your life back :p This is an honest rant about my recent attitude at work...and I'm not proud of it. I just wanted to put it out there, so we can all reflect on our own shortcomings.
Recently a new guy joined my team at work. He's from India, speaks fluent Japanese and English, knows his Cisco stuff. He is probably a lot more intelligent than fifty percent of the people on my floor including the senior engineers, but he doesn't get the credit. Why? Because he's not Japanese? Because he's darker than the rest of the bunch? I don't know. Maybe deep in the crevices of our souls we feel threatened by smart people, regardless of their aesthetics.
Anyway, I can tell this guy is BORED OUT OF HIS F*CKIN' MIND. Mind you, if you fall asleep in front of seven monitors with speakers, and the phones constantly ringing off the hook, it's not because you're lazy or pathetic. It's because you can't STAND being there.
It took me a few weeks to realize this. During those few weeks, I tried to teach him how to log into routers, check configurations, memorize passwords, write grammatically sound e-mails, and talk to Japanese clients on the phone without offending them (mind you, that is a difficult feat, but once you master it, you'll be bowing in your seat while on the phone, teehee).
He wouldn't take notes. His beady eyes were always half-closed. He never remembered the passwords I tried to shove down his throat. I lost my patience. I felt it was HIS fault for not wanting to learn and improve. I started to give him the cold shoulder. I would criticize his mistakes. I was a BITCH. I was plain rude to the poor guy.
I would go home, angry that he fell asleep at his desk again, or because he talked back to me. I would whine to my boyfriend, "WHYYYY does he not want to leeeearrrn? Whyyyy is his attitude so shitty?" And then I'd go back to work the next day and continue the vicious cycle of cattiness.
But today, I got SICK of my own attitude. Quite literally. I came back from an early lunch sick to my stomach. I must've scared a few ladies in the restroom. Anyhow, every time the guy would ask me a question, and I gave him wry look, I felt even sicker. My stomach would churn, and squeal in pain and I'd have to get up and run down the hall again...(gross, I know.)
What happened next? This afternoon, after he talked to some manager from my company about his general attitude, he came back with a whole new outlook. He picked up the phone, made calls, sent e-mails, chased down managers to discuss network issues. Funny how one possibly positive pep talk can boost morale...I could've done that for him...I could've been that person to help him like his job a teeny bit more...but I was mean. I was unreasonable.
As the day went by and my nausea worsened, he started talking to me aimlessly, about the dramatic rescue of sixteen (?) captives in Colombia, which was blaring on the TV monitors on our walls. He compared that with the war in the Gaza Strip. I compared that with the war in Afghanistan. Then he started gabbing about the reasonable prices and plans for the iPhone, which is FINALLY coming out in Japan on July 11th. We talked to each other like equals. We laughed like we were colleagues that went way back. We shared a moment of decency.
My contempt melted away, and so did my exasperation. I feel horrible, for my selfishness and closed-mindedness...He decided to step up and be the better person, when my colleagues and I could have spent more time teaching him the ropes. Our excuses were always the same. "We're the busiest section here", "He talks back too much", "There are too many outages today".
Moral of the story is this: Make the extra effort to be nice to the new person and see him or her through. Don't be nice just on their first day. Don't give up on them even if they don't show interest or immediate improvement. I'm going to start Supervisor training this month...I hope I can be a fair, honest, reliable and FUN supervisor to work with. 'Cause if not, WHAT'S THE POINT OF HAVING A COOL JOB LIKE MINE? I get to work with people from all around the globe. I get to fix International network outages. I get to talk to engineers in Hong Kong, Germany, New York, Africa and more, ALL THE TIME. I save my clients billions of yen/dollars. I keep them in touch with the rest of the world. I make sure they can stream YouTube videos while they work overtime, LOL.
Being mean 'aint fun, and being selfless takes immense effort. So keep it simple, just be nice. That way you'll save yourself a lot trips to the restroom too ;p